Dear my future baby…
This candle was given to me on Mother’s day 2017 and a text that wished me a happy mother’s day for a future mom to be. This gesture was a heartwarming experience. I took the candle and promised to light it the day I get my positive pregnancy test. The candle sits on my shelf, patiently waiting to be lit. This candle holds a visual reminder of patience, hope, and faith for me.
6 years ago I shared a “Dear my future husband” note to Facebook. Although I wasn’t the original author I fell in love with the idea of writing to your future, letting the universe know what you desire most. 3 days shy of being exactly 6 months later I got my wish. The person I described in the note (my changes to the original) fell right into my lap. I recall spending countless hours praying for this person to be in my life because I was so lonely. I wanted a partner to spend my life with.
After 4 months of dating, we announced our future wedding date. Oh, boy was that a challenge. Some were in agreement some not so much. It didn’t matter to us I believe we were made for each other. People still have their opinions and judgment. What they don’t see is the everyday things that happen between us. The laughter, joking and precious time spent making memories. Who are they to judge my happiness? Yes, every relationship has obstacles sometimes relationship threatening ones. What matters is how you overcome them. My hope for this post is to put it out there to the universe my desire to be a mother. It worked the first time 6 years ago, so let’s see what happens.
Dear my future baby,
Mommy and Daddy have been eagerly waiting for you. It has been 5 long years of praying, of crying, and dreaming. I know it may not seem that long in heaven, but it feels like an eternity here on earth.
I find myself daydreaming about you. Imagining what it will feel like to feel you kick in my tummy. Or what you will look like, if you have daddy’s eyes and Mommy’s hair. If you will inherit the geek/nerd personalities your dad, and I share. How it feels to hold you in my arms. How your hair smells or watching your little hand grasping my finger. I even think about your little toes :). I’m excited to tell you stories of our adventures and taking a million selfies together. Your daddy is already working on “Dad jokes.” I cannot wait for these moments.
I don’t know when to expect you, but that’s okay. I simply want you to know that I am still waiting, and I am ready for you. I cannot promise you that I will be the perfect mother. I can promise you that I will do the absolute best that I can. I will spoil you with all the love I have to offer.I will do my best to cherish every moment we have together in this short life.
Until then, your dad and I will continue our memorable adventures. We are having game nights, Netflix movie nights, laughing a lot, and learning lessons before you get here. We are preparing our life for your arrival and cannot wait to meet you someday.
Know that you are already loved.